the nursery!

it only took a year... 

but here is joshua's nursery! 

i talked about what it would look like. 

i worked on a lot of different project for this year. 

i really love his nursery. 

in Nursery Decoreate, part 1

i talked about the layout/ floor plan. 

we ended up moving to a new place so his room actually looked like this: 

 

{sorry for the over exposed picture} 

 

 in Nursery Decorate, part 2

i talked about an ABC wall. 

this is by far my favorite part of his nursery!

 some letters i bought. and a lot i made. 

as you can see his initials are the only letter type repeated & they're the largest.

my favorite it probably the G- a race track with hot wheels :) 

i also really like the yarn-wrapped W

one letter is not finished... can you tell...? 

i was suppose to wrap the C in a Colorado map. never happened. 

but really, i am very proud and really love this thing!

Nursery Decorate, part 3

talked about the crib & bedding. 

and that's exactly what i did :) 

the crib was a gracious gift from my parents. 

i love that bumper. 

the only difference between when i first decorated the room & now...

is this cute boy standing up in that crib!

and my last Nursery Decorate, part 4

 talked about the dresser that would double as a changing table. 

craigslist for $35- check

painted my my lovely husband- check

adorable knobs from ikea for $2.99- check

i didn't have any other Nursery Decorate posts... 

but i did a bunch of other really great things for his nursery... 

including this mobile made from paint chips:

this glider i got off craigslist for $35:

 

i just recovered the foot rest & made a matching pillow :) 

the nightstand table i got from ikea for $19.99 and the lamp from target for $16

 i love the bedding i got for the extra bed. ikea! (don't remember price)

here's the reading nook: 

"bookshelves" ie ikea spice racks painted orange

all his stuffed animals

and a bucket full of books!

(plus a fan)

and lastly, the bookshelf:

 

this is obviously only one shelf. 

but i took a bookcase we already owned, my dear husband painted it white,

and i mod podged scrapbook paper onto the back. 

it's probably one of my favorite things in the room!

so that's the breakdown of sweet Joshua's nursery. 

once we move and set it up again, i'll some new pictures :) 

Joshua Manuel: 11 months

Joshua,
are you really 11 months old? is that even possible?
well i guess it is... you are walking everywhere! 

you are very talkative. very opinionated. very loud. very cute. very sweet. very smart.
and just pretty wonderful.

this month you decided eating anything mushy was lame. also being fed was lame. all big boy, all the time. you eat plenty! you love toast with avocado, all types of big boy food, chicken, turkey, and blueberries still.

you have a very strong opinion about everything and have no problem telling me how you feel. you are very aware and always watching what is going on. nothing gets past you! you've started to have a little more separation anxiety... you just know more and want to be with momma more. it's hard at church and i don't like to see you sad, but this too shall pass & soon you'll remember how much you love church! 

you are moving from 3 naps to 2. some days it is a struggle because if your first two naps aren't long enough you get very cranky but then don't want to sleep. the transition is always difficult but we're figuring it out. you usually wake up between 7 and 7:30am and go to sleep between 7:30 and 8pm.

you love to dance! you also LOVE music. your favorite toy right now is this little bear that sings and lights up. you like to go "bye-bye," especially when we go to Kma's & Opa's house. you love hanging out and playing with the big kids - your cousins & all your friends at church. you're learning how to play chase. that is very fun!

you've grown out of all your 9month clothing & are in size 4 night diapers.

you are learning how to give hugs and kisses (i really like this part). you really just smile all the time! even when you are sick, you smile...

yup, that's right this month you got the flu AGAIN. for the third time in your short 11 months you got the flu. it lasted almost 6 days and you threw up plenty. you also had the runs something terrible. it was super sucky. and i really hate it when you are sick. not to mention you got sick when we were moving...

yup, that's right this month we moved! we were suppose to close on a house at the end of the month, but that fell through. so we moved in to Kma's & Opa's house and now we are looking for a new house. thankfully you have your own room here. you love seeing Kma, Opa, and Uncle Johnny everyday. you have lots of fun exploring and walking all over the house. we are thankful we have somewhere to be as we figure out where we should live next!

my joshie, my joshie, i love you my joshie. even when the days are hard and long and i'm way past weary with sickness and house stuff and life stuff YOU MAKE ME SMILE. deep down, love more than i ever thought possible, smile. i am so thankful for you. i'm thankful for your laughter and silly vampire teeth. i'm thankful for your silliness and mischievousness. im thankful for your loudness and opinions. you keep us on our toes and we love chasing you around.

joshua,
we love you more and more everyday! 
love,
your momma & daddy

His mercies are new every morning

yesterday was rough. 

it was our first real day in this "temporary" living space

{my parents home}

joshua woke up at 5:45am soaking wet in his own waste

the poor baby was freezing cold and the stench was unbearable

{bath#1}

he's been stomach-flu-sick since thursday

bottle & cheerios for breakfast

throw it all up

{bath#2}

lots of crying.holding.sad. 

overwhelming amounts of work

{it's sprinkler shutdown season}

small naps because his stomach is less than full

eating a few ounces at a time

so much work to do

another mess in the pajamas

{bath#3}

another nap

no real appetite for any real food

i'm struggling. more tired than i thought possible

piles and piles of laundry to fold

more work

he's in bed by 7:40pm.

we're asleep by 9:40pm. 

{earliest we've ever gone to sleep}

and this morning...

normal wake up 

happy baby

accomplishing work 

good naps

plenty in his belly 

and i couldn't get it out of my head- 

Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed,
    for his compassions never fail.

They are new every morning;
    great is your faithfulness.

it's been a rough couple weeks

but reading Lamentations 3

i am reminded of so much

The Lord is good to those whose hope is in him,
    to the one who seeks him

my hope is in HIM

not in the things of this world 

{they are fading}

my hope is in HIM

and every morning His mercies and compassions are NEW

praising God for the setting sun and the rising dawn 

for new mercies 

and new mornings

for my hope

first world problems...

it's a hashtag. 

for real. like 4 months ago no one even knew what a #hashtag was. but now people are all about #hashtagging #this and #that. whatever is does, making people feel important. 

but #firstworldproblems is a #hashtag that has got me thinking a lot lately...

all this social media. it's often times just a sounding board for complaining, self-empathy, and "o look how important/awesome/wonderful/funny/cool I AM" 

so often i get on Facebook {which is often} and everyone is just complaining.

baby didn't sleep. 

i'm tired. 

i'm bored. 

my friends are lame. 

i didn't get _____.

this is stressful. 

blah 

blah 

blah

and then all these "first world problems" 

stuff the majority of the world doesn't even have the option to think about! 

example:

on wednesday, my phone screen broke. i pretty much could only call the people on speed dial. 

i was unable to do work really. i couldn't contact anyone etc. 

so i got on Facebook asking if people had an extra phone lying around. 

a sweet friend graciously dug out a phone & charger and left it in the milk box for me to pick up. 

i picked it, put my sim card in, and started playing with it. 

admittedly it's pretty hard to work & much different than any other phone i've had. 

the buttons are just the opposite & where i usually press "send" i'm pressing "delete"

my sinful heart grew something ugly. 

i was grouchy and frustrated and just not fun to be around. 

but the #hashtag 

#firstworldproblems

popped into my head. 

with this phone i can still call everyone i need. 

i can still do my work. i can even snap a picture of my cute boy.

this grouchy and ungrateful heart of mine was rocked with the thought that the majority of the world doesn't even have the option to be grouchy and ungrateful about any phone at all. 

for some people doing their work means walking miles. for some people talking with their mom is not even possible because of distance. for some people having just a land line would be world-shattering-wonderful.

and i think this is so true of so many people right now. 

we use social media to complain about all these things that aren't even an option for the majority of the world. 

#firstworldproblems

can we just be grateful & appreciate the blessings of this "first world" we live in???

THANK YOU LORD

for

this phone

this house

these problems

for food on the table

formula in the cupboard

toys in the basket 

crumbs on the floor

insurance 

busy schedules

soccer games & birthday parties

crockpots 

grocery store trips

filling the tank with gas

bathtime

fresh water all.the.time

for so much. 

everything around me. 

even when it feels like a burden, something to complain about. 

Lord, remind to be thankful for these

#firstworldproblems

{i don't write these things because i think i'm so much better than everyone else, it's just what God is teaching me right now...}

200,000 {steps}

my favorite: my real favorite:

Joshua Manuel: 10 months

Joshua,
{camera is still lost, no replacement yet, very few pictures, so I'm just going to write, because i don't want to forget}

my growing boy! O how you bring so much joy into our lives!

you are very opinionated. you are a ham & a flirt. you love to laugh & make other people laugh. you also really love dancing. your favorite toys are anything that make music. your favorite foods include blueberries, peas, and squash. you're all about feeding yourself and being a big boy. no more squishy-mushy food for joshua!

you got 1 more tooth- total of 4 now. your hair is growing in quite nicely, a little lighter than i thought it would. you say Dada all the time & also say the cutest "Hi" i've ever heard. it's sort of soft and drawn out and very sweet. you are growing out of the baby stage. some people have been calling you a "toddler." really, i don't know if i can handle that. really, i can't believe you are going to be ONE year old in just 2 months. you are real close to give up nap #3. and could start walking any day now. really, my baby... you can't be ready to walk can you?

you're also into everything. that's pretty much the understatement of the year. any trouble there is to find, you find it. anything that's not suppose to be picked up off the floor and eaten, you eat it. every tiny piece of paper, shoe, crumb, or spec of dirt there is to find, you find it & put it in your mouth. i'm having to vacuum more than i ever have before... and it's still not enough. you find the smallest spaces to crawl into and get stuck in. you pull things down, knock things over, and tear everything apart. it's lots of work for momma & daddy but we love to see you exploring and adventuring!

"helping" momma with the laundry

stuck in the strangest places

we spent a lot of time away from home this month. a dear friend and brother in Christ was killed in action in afghanistan. it was a very hard month for your momma & daddy. but you brought us so much joy! we are more thankful for each moment with you than ever before. you LOVED being with your friends. i think you will the best big brother! you aren't intimidated by their size, volume, or roughness. you are loud right back and have no problem tackling anyone who's messing with you.

hanging with the Ferni's

on a much yuckier note... you got the flu AGAIN. and graciously shared with all your friends. you were the first one. the first throw up. ALL OVER momma at red robin. yup. you threw up all over me. at red robin. for about a week you had no appetite. it was really no fun, but you were such a happy boy even in the midst of being sick and having no appetite. and you seriously shared your sickness with about 10 people. yes, 10 people got the sickness you did! pretty impressive sharing joshua! let's hope for no more flu again for a while.

  

we love you so much. we love your smile and laughter and contagious joy! thank you for making us laugh and smile, even on days when we didn't think it was possible. we thank God that he made you ours and that we have the blessing of being your momma & daddy. you are one incredible baby boy and we can't wait to see the great plans God has for your life.

bath time is great fun!

 we love you more and more everyday!
 love, momma & daddy

would you like to sit down for coffee?

this cute girl & i having coffee

let's chat a bit.
would you like some coffee?
i'll make it in my $13 coffee pot & i'll take mine with some french vanilla creamer {but not too much}. you? joshua is taking a nap. let's enjoy some quiet.

august is over. this month has been insane. i've cried a lot this month. i've looked to the future a lot this month. i've enjoyed my boy a lot this month. we've been away from home a lot this month. i've been working on my heart in my marriage a lot this month. this month has hurt.

but i'm thankful. i'm thankful for my family and my church. i'm thankful that our church can be the church and live out the love of Christ to those around it. i'm thankful that my boy makes me laugh every.single.hour. i'm thankful for so much. and yet it seems i can't find the right words.
maybe it's guilt. maybe it's pain. i really don't know.

and now it's september. my boy is 10 months old & i still don't have a camera & i feel insanely guilty that i'm missing every picture opportunity and there will be no record of this time and how he grew and what he learned and how he made us laugh.
and it's september and i'm learning that life just keeps moving. no matter who you are or what you've gone through or how you think you can't go on. life keeps going. and i don't know how that makes sense. shouldn't life stop? shouldn't she get a break?
and it's september. manny turns 26 next week. nicole and andrew get married. i've got dentist appointments. and need to get my hair done. need to do a lot of things.

i just want to be in His presence. in the glory of the Lord. is my life full of Him. or is it full of stuff and the world? because i know this house is full of stuff. i want it to glorify the Lord. i want my whole life to point towards Him and His saving power and love and grace and forgiveness. how do i get there? what do i do? what do i change? 

that's what i would say if we met for coffee...
what's on your heart today?