Asher Gray: 2 years

Asher Gray,
My crazy boy. You are two years old now. I honestly don't even know where to start... All the ways you make me crazy... All the ways you kill me with your cuteness... All the ways I don't understand you... All the ways we absolutely adore you... All the ways we are so thankful you are ours! 

Since about 11 months old, you have been "tough." You are CONSTANTLY going, CONSTANTLY getting into trouble, CONSTANTLY moving. You never stop, never slow down, never give us a break. You don't care about shows, but will appreciate Elmo for about 3 minutes. You spend about 3 minutes of every hour playing quietly by yourself... In those moments, I am in awe of your little {BIG} personality and the boy you are growing up to be. And then the other 57 minutes of every hour, you are moving from thing to the next, pulling things down, pulling things out, running things over, tripping over other things, running, jumping, never stopping... In those moments, I wonder how I survive and how I will keep up. You aren't necessary "coordinated" and seem to have very little awareness of your body but you are TOUGH. You fall down a lot, but you just keep on going. You are kind of like a tank that just rolls over everything in it's path bringing lots of destruction but hardly takes notice.

Since before Kennedy came, you moved downstairs with Joshua. He sleeps in a twin bed & you sleep in a crib. About 2 weeks after Kennedy was born you figured out how to climb out of that crib. And pretty much, every night, for the past 3 months you have climbed out of that crib, gotten in trouble, been put back to bed, then climbed right back out, and repeated that cycle about 7 times a night. Some nights are better than others and sometimes you are better when your daddy is home, but 75% of the time you climb out, you climb out, you climb out. You really don't care about that "getting into trouble" discipline thing, you just keep climbing out until your brother is fast asleep and you are too tired to do it once more.... One day, we'll look back at this time and laugh... 

Another "tough" part of this past year has been all the sickness you have dealt with. It really just breaks my heart. You got more colds, more fevers, more time throwing up, more bad coughs, more diaper rashes, more ear infections, more YUCK than I would ever wish on anyone. One thing we did figure out was that you are most likely allergic to soy and/or diary. After way too much diarrhea, a dear friend suggested the allergy. One day of no dairy or soy in your diet and the diarrhea was gone! Praise the Lord! It has been a little difficult to change your diet but you are honestly a much less picky eater now & I think it has improved your behavior as well. Here's to praying that the next year of your life is FAR less sick!

You & your brother find lots of trouble together... especially while I am nursing your little sister. When you were first born and Josh sat at my feet throwing fits because I wasn't playing with him, I said to myself, "You won't ever have to do this again, because next time you are nursing a baby Josh & Asher will have each other..." Well, that has proved true - you have each other to get into the pantry, pull out the craisins, and dump them all over the floor, you have each other to put toilet paper roll after toilet paper roll into the toilet, you have each other to hit and make cry while I can do nothing about it, and every once in a while you have each other to play with. Now, I have learned a thing or two - I *almost* always shut/lock every door to every room, I've put a lock on the fridge, a a gate on the pantry, and I *almost* always put away all the food on the counter, but somehow you two seem find plenty to get into no matter what I do. So each and every day I am reminded of my desperate need for Jesus... His patience, His grace, and those new mercies each and every day. 

At two years old, some things I don't want to forget about my Asher-man: 
  • how you say "I sit right here"
  • the way you make your sister smile & giggle
  • your sweet, sweet cuddles
  • how if anyone is doing anywhere or doing anything it is always "SHOPPIN"
  • how you always, always, always want to help me cook in the kitchen
  • your laugh
  • that you call firetrucks, police cars, and ambulances "wee-O-wee-O's"
  • how you say "ella. ella. ella." & always want to talk to her or facetime her
  •  your fearless attitude 
  • how often you copy  your brother exactly
  • your high pitched voice when you are repeating me

At two years old, some of your favorite things:
  • your blankie/ dee-dee 
  • blueberries, sausage & eggs, fries, almond milk, and juice
  • playing cars
  • being outside with your brother
  • cuddling & being held by your momma all.the.time.
  • helping in the kitchen 
  • going to play at the y 
  • playing "rescue bots"
  • the choo-choo in our front yard 
  • reading (by yourself & with others)
  • Blitzy - one of your first real words 
  • tacos for dinner - what you picked for your birthday dinner
  • anything sweet 
  • your Opa 
One your actual birthday this year we had a taco dinner at our house with Daddy, Joshie, Kennedy, Kma, Opa & Uncle Johnny. We had coconut ice cream and homemade cookies for dessert. We celebrated the next Saturday at the park near our house with lots of friends & family. We were supposed to get sub sandwiches, but Momma kinda forgot & Daddy had to order pizza :) You loved playing at the park and being with all your friends and cousins.
 Asher Gray, you drive us crazy and we love you SO much! I can't wait to see what this never stops, never gives in, pretty stubborn, quiet but sure, FUNNY personality brings as you grow. You keep us on our toes and keep us laughing every day. I love hearing more and more of what you have to say. I can't wait to see how your relationship with your siblings continues to grow. You are an amazing little guy! we love you more and more everyday! 
love, your momma & daddy

Kennedy Maren: 3 months

Kennedy Girl,
3 months old. Lots to say. The CUTEST dimple on your right cheek. Hair all falling out. Hot bottles only. Adorable clothes. Sweet cuddles. Long days. No more oxygen! Growing out of 3 month clothes. Lots of grace. Lots of love...

Sweet girl,
This month it eventually stopped raining & summer came to greet us with sunshine and happy, Daddy traveled some more, we found 4 kittens under our house and have all become obsessed with them, you passed your third overnight oxygen study, we celebrated Asher's 2nd birthday, and you starting giggling for real.

Some of your favorite things:
  • watching your brothers play
  • hanging out in the Moby during work 
  • morning naps
  • pooping on Sundays 
  • talking to Kma
  • crying between 4-5pm 
  • sleeping from 7:30pm-5am {PRAISE}
  • your hands in your mouth
Some of your least favorite things:
  • lukewarm bottles
  • when Asher sits on you when you are in your chair (understandable!)
  • lunch time - because often, we get home & I have to get your brothers lunch first and then feed you
  • afternoon naps
  • when the car stops moving

We are so blessed by you easy personality most of the day, your ability to sleep!, your sweet smiles & cuddles, and your chunky thighs and rolls. You are such a big girl! You are strong and hold your head up like a champ. You have even started trying to sit up while in your car seat. Your brothers are mildly obsessed with you. Asher is always concerned about your whereabouts and recently starting giving you the sweetest kisses. Joshua is quick to help and often wants to "hold his baby sister." I absolutely adore dressing you in all these cute clothes. I love kissing those cheeks. My favorite time of the day is after I put your brothers to bed, the house is quiet,  you are all swaddled up, you eat, fall asleep and then just rest in my arms and on my shoulder for a while. I just soak up that time. Soak in your sweetness and greatness. Praying for what lies ahead and thanking the Lord for my sweet, sweet girl.

we love you more and more everyday! 
love,
your momma & daddy


Kennedy Maren: 2 months

Kennedy Girl,
You started this month off with a bang - RSV, a 3 day hospital stay, and lots of oxygen! Thankfully you were never super sick, just couldn't keep your oxygen levels up. Your hospital stay was lots of quite time for the two of us. You ate and slept great through it all. We were super thankful you got the support you needed and recovered pretty quickly from yucky sickness. Unfortunately, you are still on oxygen... You've failed two overnight studies & you'll have another one the first week of June- maybe you'll pass then! Until then we'll just keep carting around the oxygen and hoping your lungs develop the way they need to!
You've gotten really great at smiling. You shared your very first smiles with Kma (TWICE), but I couldn't imagine a better person for you to share those smiles with. You are very talkative. You do a great job sleeping at night, all swaddled tight. Most of the time it's 7:30pm to around 4:30am then back to sleep till around 9am. I am so very thankful for that sleep and the extra time in the morning I have with your brothers. Most days we are out and about in the morning- you nap in the car seat. Two days out of the week, we go to work in the afternoon and you are such a champion.




Daddy traveled quite a bit this month. The first time Daddy left there were lots of tears, Asher got the stomach flu & Momma was not sure she would survive - but we did... And then he went on another trip and we did okay and then we figured out - this is where we are, this is hard, but this is good & there is joy! So there is where we are - finding the joy in the hard.
Kennedy girl, we all love you so very much. We love putting bows in your hair, we love giving you baths, we love having you with us, we love cuddling with you, rocking you, and holding you, we love spending our days as a family of five & are o-so-very thankful for you, my girl!
we love you more & more everyday!
love, momma & daddy

Kennedy Maren: 1 month

Kennedy Maren, 
My sweet, sweet girl! We've survived your first month! You've been the easy part... It's your brothers who are giving us a run for our money... But we're taking it one day, sometimes one minute at a time. If you were to walk into our house at any given moment, odds are at least 1 would be crying... But that is just life with three kiddos 3 and under!
You are so beautiful my girl! You've got a great head of hair & it does the funniest flippy thing on the ends. We shall see if it stays & grows or all falls out??!  I'm having lots of fun with all the pink & bows & sweetness! It really is a whole new world. When you are awake you are WIDE EYED. You've got beautiful blue eyes and are so very alert. You're a night owl. You are usually most awake from about 5-9pm and love to be held at this time. It makes bed time with your brothers very interesting. But once you're out, you're out and the past week or so have only been waking up once around 4 or 5am. 
Talk about grace upon grace. You are very easy baby. You sleep and eat and fill your diaper. You only really cry when I want you to nap in your car seat and you don't think that is a great idea. You started sleeping in your own room/crib by night #2 at home. That is just what works for our family :) For nap time, Asher sleeps in the upstairs crib {your room}, Josh has quiet time downstairs {in the boys room}, and you sleep in the basket {in our room}. You do great with bottles. You are a fan of your paci right now but are really trying to find your thumb. Asher loves to stick the paci in your mouth, even when you don't need it. Joshua is all about having "belly time" with you & almost everyday when you wake up he exclaims, "her is bigger now Mom, hers bigger! Can she crawl now?!" The day you start crawling might just be the best day ever! Asher mostly calls you "Baby" and Joshua calls you "Baby Kennedy." You are fiercely loved by your brothers!
Your first holiday- EASTER! We celebrated with an early morning Egg Hunt at the house, Easter baskets, church, Egg Hunt at church, and then Easter Lunch with Kma & Opa at our house.
 1 Month Stats:
Weight- 10lbs- 70%
Height- 22in- 86%
Head Circ- 14.5in- 58%

 We are so very thankful for you Miss Kennedy. You bring lots of joy & love to our crazy house! 
We love you too much! 
-your momma & daddy 


She's Here!

Kennedy Maren Pollard
Born March 14, 2015
3:19am 
7lbs 15oz
21 inches 

life lately

because I'm feeling like I don't want to forget {and I know I will}. because soon I will have three littles and life will be completely different. because I have so much to do {i.e. work & clean} but right now writing out this life is more important.

right now... I.AM.SO.PREGNANT. I'll be 38 weeks tomorrow. I am constantly in pain. I can hardly move. Sweeping the floor takes all the energy in my body. I wake up with terrible indigestion and heartburn almost every night. I love ice water {all the time}. I also love Costco Mac n Cheese. Tonight's craving - Birthday Cake Oreos - they were very tasty :)

On Monday we moved the boys into their "shared" room. Joshua calls it a sleepover every night and still doesn't really understand why Asher can't nap downstairs during rest time... They really have done so well. Asher giggles for a while,  Josh tells him to go to sleep. I cherish those giggles. They are waking each other up earlier than normal and everyone is pretty tired but I think that phase will pass.

Today I got Baby K's dresser full of newborn clothes - thank you Kaci Krause. One day at a time, we are getting ready for our little girl...

This stage is tough. There's no way around it. I sometimes wonder what it would be like if I wasn't this miserably uncomfortable, CRAZY pregnant lady... But I'm not. And this stage is tough.

Joshua is such a typical 1st born... Not at all like his mother. O wait. Before bed tonight we had a 15 minute conversation/fit about what pajama bottoms matched the pajama shirt he wanted to wear. And he certainly can't wear footie pajamas right now because he has to wear his Lighting McQueen slippers to bed. Earlier today, he was crying/screaming/arguing about what I'm allowed to take to the hospital for Baby K because the ladies at the hospital will take it. He's smart. He's funny. He likes to cuddle with his momma and he's sweet most of the time. And I've known this for a long time... But he's got his way and that's the only way anything works. Sometimes I get really tired of trying to reason with my three year old...

Asher is... Asher. I've never met a child like him before. He's like a tank engine zooming from one thing to another bringing destruction where ever he goes. He's like a BIG BABY. Literally a GIANT baby. He weighs 32 lbs and is growing out of 2T pajamas. But he wants to be held and cuddled and carried ALL.DAY.LONG. He loves saying MOMMA.MOMMA.MOMMA. Daddy. OPA. OPA. OPA. ELLA. ELLA. ELLA. He whines all morning for a snack and then I put him in his chair and give him one of his "favorite" foods and he refuses to eat. He would be content if I let him play at the sink with ALL the dishes and ALL silverware and ALL the water. Speaking of dishes, that little boy has broken more dishes in his 21 months of existence than I have in almost 6 years of marriage. So long Pottery Barn drinking glasses I love so much. He hides things. He loses things {like a $30 Lion King DVD from the public library}. He also loves TRACTORS and TRUCKS and CARS. He still could care less about TV. Thank the Lord he still takes a great nap, but it must be in his crib promptly at 12:30pm. And he's so cute. He's got a CHEESE face that is to die for. He's funny. And he surprises me everyday. I love that BIG baby Asher man.

Our daily schedule is about like this:
6:30-7:15am WAKE UP- Manny is usually up and getting ready for work. It used to be just Josh coming in to see us & then ready to watch a show. Now Asher has joined him and it seems like our mornings are much more AWAKE with both of them up at the exact same time.
by 8am - Daddy has left for work. I'm trying to do the dishes and clean up with kitchen or something.
around 9am - Try to have shows off & either work on a house project {more cleaning, organizing, etc} or go out {grocery shopping, play date, library, YMCA, etc}
11:15am - LUNCH
12pm - The boys usually play together really well during this time. Usually I clean the kitchen or something. Sometimes I just sit.
12:30pm - Asher goes down for his nap. Josh either gets to go play outside {in the snow} or he gets to watch his show. I try and sit down to look through work stuff.
1:30pm - Joshua goes down for "rest time." He plays in his room until his alarm goes off. 75% of the time during rest I usually sit and work or sit and work and watch TV. On Tuesdays I go work at the office from 1-5pm {Grandma Mary & Grandpa George hang out with boys} and on Fridays I work at the office from about 1-4pm {Babysitter w/boys}.
Around 3:30pm Asher wakes up and we cuddle on the couch.
3:43pm - Josh is done with rest time & usually we all watch a show or listen to Disney Radio together and wait for Daddy to come home
around 4:30-5pm Manny gets home and it's the rush to get dinner on the table.
Usually eating by 5:30pm - Dinner is a crazy, chaotic, sanctifying time for all of us...
Play, Read, Watch a Show, Bathtime, Etc.
7pm - Brush teeth, potty, pajamas, read books, prayers, sing songs, lights out and bed.
Then Manny & I usually watch our shows, work, hang out, etc.
We don't go to sleep until way too late. Usually around 11pm.
Then we sleep and wake up the next day to do it all again.

And that's our life right now. it's hard and wonderful. there is always laughter. and always tears.
I am so very thankful.
{and I could add pictures, but I'm tired. good night}

29 weeks


How far along?  29 weeks
Baby Size: weighs 2.5-3lbs - size of an acorn squash
Gender: GIRL
Name: Joshua tells everyone, so we just tell everyone - Kennedy {middle name secret}
Total weight gain/loss: I'm not looking at the scale. I feel like a whale.
Maternity clothes?  yes. yes. yes.
Stretch marks? Ummm kinda. Nothing new from Baby #3 at least.
Sleep:  most days I feel pretty gross by the end of the day with heartburn and indigestion so I have a hard time falling asleep. once i fall asleep there's no telling if I will sleep well or not. some nights I'm up 1-2 times going pee and wake up for an hour at a time just because, other nights I sleep straight through the night with no issues.
Miss Anything?  not going to lie, alcohol. and feeling like a sane human being.
Food cravings: this week- CHEESE. more specifically pretzels & cheese dip.
Anything making you queasy or sick:  e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g gives me heartburn/ indigestion.
Have you started to show yet:  yesssssss
Labor Signs: don't think so.
Other symptoms: I'm just so so so so so so tired.
Belly Button in or out? going from in to flat.
Wedding rings on or off? On
Happy or Moody most of the time:  Moody. for sure. sorry to all those around me.
Looking forward to: going to Tennessee THIS week to see my much more pregnant friend ;)