4 miles w/ the jogging stroller. 2 firsts.

on the calendar --- 4 mile training run
{remember friends my fake race is just 1 week away}
also today --- manny playing golf with friend & prom
{yes, we're going to PRHS Prom... as chaperones}

manny's been working tons of overtime, like till 7pm every night this week.
which meant i was not getting any runs in. 
so my gracious sister-in-law let me borrow her jogging stroller. 
so i can get my runs in, even if manny is at work. 

so back to saturday morning...
beautiful spring day. manny out all morning. prom all evening.
let's do this. 
4 miles with the jogging stroller. 

{here we are ready to go}

the wind was pretty wicked. so i immediately put the sun/weather shade down. 
tried to pick the best route with the least amount of giant hills. 
tried to run well. and not walk every time i wanted to. 
first time ever with a jogging stroller. 

i could run with my baby- no sitter. 
joshua was comfy, warm, blocked from sun and wind. 
he even fell asleep around mile 3. 
it was very light.
had a handle in middle so i could hold the stroller with one hand & run with the other arm.

not my favorite
the front will was stationary, making it quite difficult to turn. 
{are all jogging strollers like this?}
the front easily got very jumping going downhill. 
was much more comfortable pushing/steering with my right arm, wish i could have done the pushing/ arm pumping equally with both arms. i think the right is going to be sore. 

i'm pretty darn exhausted. 
but i'm proud i did it.  
i'd never once ran with a jogging stroller before. 
4 miles is my longest run since my half when i was 16 weeks pregnant. 
i did walk up most hills... need to gain a little strength! 
didn't walk at all the last mile after i ran past a friends house & she cheered me on :)
i don't know if i'll rely on the jogging stroller for every long run, but i think it will be really nice to use on weekdays when i have time, but no one to watch joshua. 

{little man asleep under there}

{my view. aren't those little white socks adorable?}

{and we're done. and home.}

embrace the camera: 4/26/2012

{bath time baby}

embracing the camera with emily over at the anderson crew
it's good to get a few pictures of me with my little babe... 
someday he might appreciate it... 

who knows...

well. for too long my blog got deleted.
it was confusing and i still don't really know how it happened.
and now it's back.
again- confusing & i don't really know how it happened.

but all that matters is that i did not lose my blog.
so i will continue blogging. and maybe read things a little closer... 

so we'll do a little iTouch photo dump...

what we've been up to lately: 
{new jeans}

{kisses for my sweet baby boy}

{one sock. butt up. nap time}


{joshua & jackson love to play together}

{manny has been riding his bike to work}
{way to go babe!}

{started a new job, working from home}
{on the deck with my baby}
{pretty great job :)}

{bath time} 

{went on a walk}

{found 8 deer in our backyard}

{might be getting some teeth}

...so glad to have my blog back...

tuesday thoughts

from yesterday to today... i'm doing a bit better. 

i don't know much. 
but i do know that i have a wonderful husband that speaks truth into my life even when it's hard to hear. even when it's not what i want to hear. he just speaks truth. and i am grateful for that. 

i do know that i have a wonderful momma. she's so supportive & helpful & wonderful. seriously. 

i do know that i just want to know Jesus more. i want to be secure in His promises and who He made me to be... as Joshua's momma, as Manny's wife, as a friend, daughter, and sister. 

i do know that my baby is a precious gift from above & i want to cherish each one of these moments. even the hard ones. because soon i won't be holding him all day while trying to do everything. soon he won't sleep on my shoulder when i get him out of his car seat. soon he won't laugh every time i take off his shirt. soon he won't smile every.single.time i just look at him. soon he won't want to listen to me sing to him. so many things are special to this time and this age and this moment. and all of them are just precious gifts from our gracious Father. and i want to cherish each one in thankfulness knowing that it's because of God's love that i'm even able to love this sweet baby boy. 

so that's where i'm at today... 

in other news. 

my nike+ and i have reconnected. i love that lady telling me how far i've run, how fast slow i've been going. etc.  yesterday: 2.00 miles. 21:57. pace 10:58 per mile. calories burned 314. it's slow and not too far. but i did it. 

one thing i'm not loving about running in this new neighborhood... all the stinking hills! no matter which way i go or where i run i'm always running more than one hill. and i still haven't figured out a good 1 mile loop. at our first house there was a perfect 1 mile loop. gradual uphill first half, gradual downhill second half. i would run that loop over and over and over. now i'm just running up and down random streets trying to find something that's not a giant hill. so far, no luck. maybe today... 

my new thing- sweet potato fries. so good. so easy. just 1 sweet potato cut into something that resembles fries, olive oil & any random seasoning i feel like, oven at 450 for like 40 minutes. SO GOOD

i need to start using my calendar better. my mind cannot keep track of everything that is going on. 

joshua woke up at 6:15 this morning. no thank you

so i'm going to take a nap. adios

from the heart of this new momma...

in typical Kim fashion, i cannot currently locate my camera... bummer. 
so instead of sweet pictures of my sweet baby we can look at these pretty flowers. 
they do make my heart happy. 
so does this pandora station. 
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honestly, my heart is not in the greatest of places. 
two weeks ago at bible study i shared how joshua & i were in this great groove
 and i was really feeling great about life. 
this morning at bible study i struggled to find the right words. 
this motherhood thing has got me to my breaking point. 
no sweet groove. just lots of screaming and crying and frustration.
we've had a couple busy days. not normal naps. not normal eating. 
he's becoming more aware for where i am and wanting to be with me. 
it's a whole new thing. 
and i just don't know... do i hold him constantly? let him cry? let him scream? 
God send some wisdom! 
i've got nothing. 

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and then i get frustrated that i am frustrated with this 
incredible blessing, this miracle, this gift, this perfect little boy... 
how can i get so upset with such a little person?
he's helpless & he just loves me
he has no other way to communicate & he knows he is secure in my arms
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so Lord, please send me Your wisdom, Your patience, Your strength, and Your peace.
i am nothing without You. 
i thank You for Joshua. i am so so so thankful. 
thank You for getting us this far. for the incredible five and half months we've had. 
thank You for Your promises. 
thank You for a great group of woman at my monday morning study to hold me up & tell me "this too shall pass" 
Lord, i need You. i love You. 

what a craft can teach me...

So i had great plans for this really great blog about my cool art project... 
but i think God had a much different plan. 
I got these awesome scripture prints for this great Etsy shop- Naptime Diaries 
i got four with an awesome sale & her buy 3, get 1 free. 2 for our house. 2 as gifts.  i was most excited about the Joshua 24:15. i have honestly dreamt about having this verse in my home since i was a little girl... 

so i started with a blank canvas & some paint {i know, i'm like a professional...} 

 i started painting...
 red to match my house... 

and then i tried to mod podge the print to the canvas...

lesson 1: patience... i have none. i wanted the paint to dry. i wanted the mod podge to dry. i wanted the final product. now. i even got out the hair dryer to speed up the process...
but why? joshua was sound asleep. manny wasn't going to be home for dinner for a while. i wasn't being timed.
i just couldn't wait. i wanted the final product. like 10 minutes ago.

Galatians 5:22-23 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness,  gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. 

and as i mod podged the ink started to run... the paper started to warp... 
it started to look so much different than my idealistic version of my little art project... 

 and i got frustrated. mad. upset. depressed. 
seriously, it's just a canvas with an 8x11print. 

1 Thessalonians 1:3 We continually remember before our God and Father your work produced by faith, you labor prompted by love. and you endurance inspired by hope in our Lord Jesus Christ.  

my heart was ugly. my attitude was lame. and why? 
because what i thought would be an awesome blog post & awesome new art work in my home didn't turn out the way i thought it would...? 
that's not what i want my life to be about...
it's not about cool blog posts. or being really good at crafting. or being the perfect wife. or the best mom in the world. 
it's about CHRIST. 
striving daily to be more like Him. 

Colossians 3:1-5 If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. Set your mind on things that are above, not on things that are on each. For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. When Christ who is you life appears, then you will appear with him in glory. Put to death therefore what is earthly in you... 

that's what it's about... that's what i need to remember. 

embrace the camera: 4//12/12

we like sticking out our tongues
linking up with emily over at theandersonfamilycrew.com for embrace the camera thursday

what am i going to do with you?

this kid is getting TOO big. 
i put him on the mat by the tv (you can see it in the background of picture below)
i go into the bathroom to start to get ready... 
and what does he do? 
rolls himself right over to me
like seriously who is this kid? 

but goodness, he is cute! 
just keep on rolling right onto the tile...
right into the bathroom 

and to think just  months ago he couldn't even lift his head... 
now he can roll across the room. to exactly where he wants to be! 
straight up m.i.r.a.c.l.e.
so many gifts... thank You.  

on this Friday...

Isaiah 53:4- 12
Surely he took up our infirmities
and carried our sorrows, 
yet we considered him stricken by God, 
smitten by him, and afflicted. 
But he was pierced for our transgressions, 
he was crushed for our iniquities;
the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, 
and by his wounds we are healed. 
We all, like sheep, have gone astray, 
each of us has turned to his own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all. 

He was oppressed and afflicted, 
yet he did not open his mouth; 
he was led like a lamb to the slaughter,
and asa sheep before her shearers is silent, 
so he did not open his mouth. 
By oppression and judgement he was taken away. 
And who can speak for his descendants? 
For he was cut off from the land of the living;
for the transgression of my people he was stricken. 
He was assigned a grave with the wicked,
and with the rich in his death, 
though he had done no violence, 
nor was any deceit in his mouth. 

Yet it was the Lord's will to crush him and to cause him to suffer, 
and though the Lord makes his life a guilt offering, 
he will see his offspring and prolong his days, 
and the will of the Lord will prosper in his hand. 
After the suffering go his soul, 
he will see the light of life and be satisfied;
by his knowledge my righteous servant will justify many, 
and he will bear their iniquities. 
Therefore I will give hime a portion among the great, 
and he will divide the spoils with the strong, 
because he poured our his life unto death, 
and was numbered with the transgressors. 
For he bore the sin of many, 
and made intercession for the transgressors. 

God's been working on this hardened heart of mine this morning...
Good Friday. The night He was crucified.

The past 40 days of Lent I was supposed to be preparing my heart...
Did I? Hardly.
So aware of my sin condition. That's what I've been praying for.
Thank You God for answering my prayer. 

So here I am.
Broken. Unworthy.
On my knees.

I thank God for this sacrifice.
I cannot imagine. From prayers in the garden to hanging on a cross.
In less than 24 hours, the whole world changed.
Jesus, dying on that cross. Taking up all my sin. All your sin. The sin of the world.
On his shoulders.
Jesus paid it all.
Thank You. 

i have run...

i have run.
i've run 2 half-marathons.
i've run in the rain,
in the snow,
in the wind,
in the sun.
i've run pregnant.
i've run slow,
and rarely faster.
i've run alone.
i've run with manny.
i've run with mandy.

and then i had a baby.
there's been little running... 

but that's going to change.
i created my own race.
yup. i did.

THE Official I'm-Too-Cheap-To-Pay-For-A-Race-But-Need-Motivation 5 Miler. 

it's an official Facebook event. here's the link.

but now that i created my own race.
and it's exactly 1 month away.
i need to get off this behind and start running!

soon i'll be able to say... 
i have run my own made up race 
but first i need to do a little training... 

{source for top 15}

embrace the camera: 4/5/12

{great-grandma pollard, me, manny, squirmy worm joshua}
everybody embracing the camera with great-grandma from our trip to Kansas City last week.
linking up with the anderson crew

tuesday thoughts

and..... it's back! ha. been about a billion years since my last tuesday thoughts, but...
computer + internet = more blogging = more remembering of our days = a happy kim

i love colorado.
sunday: 80 degrees & sunny.

{we to our chipotle to the park & had a picnic for dinner}

tuesday: SNOW DAY!

{spring snow}
{not saying i love the snow... but i love that my husband gets to have a free day & love the moisture}

listening to some Parachute on Pandora Radio.
love it!

when I went to get Joshua up from his nap I brought my camera in to snap a cute picture of his peaceful, sleeping face... Instead I got this:

{took off his sock. sucking his fingers. grinning from ear to ear}
{he makes my heart so happy}

today we get to go see sweet newborn Jocelyn!

joshua almost always smiles when you say "BOO"

manny & i have been watching big bang theory.
so funny.

goal for this week: sew pillow cover for rocking chair in joshua's room.
only 5 months late...

it's birthday month for Tupperware!
64 years of parties. yahoo!

time for some lunch & more playtime with my sweet boy.
so blessed.

Joshua Manuel: 5 months

This month you have really become such a big boy! It has been so incredible to see how quickly you've been developing and growing. You are so strong and so smart!You are insanely ticklish and you're laugh is just about the best thing ever. You still love chomping away on every.single.one of your fingers - so entertaining for you! You still like Gaffey the giraffe but your real favorite toy this month is this little froggy that vibrates when you pull it (as seen in picture). Thankfully you're still in size 3-6 months and size 2 diapers. You roll and roll and roll. Belly to back. Back to belly. Over and over. All over the house! You've even started sleeping on your side. Daddy loves to hang you upside down & you think it's very fun! We went on two fun trips this month! One was just over night to Wolf Creek to meet Jason & see Amanda. Daddy went skiing with them & we just hung out at the hotel. You were a trooper. They said, "He doesn't really cry, he just is telling you something very important!" It's so true!
We also drove {12 hours} to Joplin, MO for the pre-trip for our youth group's summer mission trip. You were a rock star in the car!!! We stayed 2 nights there & you did really great. {I mean you did wake up 3 times a night to eat, but I survived.} Then we drove north {3 hours} to Kansas City so you could meet your Great-Grandma Pollard & Aunt Janet and Uncle Tim and 2nd cousin Melissa. We stayed there 2 nights. It was so special to see you with your Great-Grandma! Then we drove home {10 hours}. That drive wasn't quite as fun, but we all survived. And when we got home you were right back to normal life & you slept through the night. Praise the Lord.
We've gone on some good walks & you even started sitting like a big boy in your stroller. You also drank out of a straw for the first time at Kma's house! See you are just getting too big! You also have started sitting up this month! Right now it's only for like 30 seconds or longer periods when your feet are held or the boppy is supporting you a little. But you're a champ! So fun. Also, this month you went in the swing at the park! It was so fun to see all your facial expressions as you experienced the swinging! Daddy was pretty nervous about having you go high, but you weren't even phased! Just a little wide-eyed & then a big smile.
We've gotten into a pretty good schedule too. You usually wake up around 7:30am. Eat & play. Go back down for you nap around 9am. Sleep till 11am. Eat & play. Nap #2 around 12:30pm. Sleep till 2 or 2:30pm. Eat & play & wait for Daddy to get home :). Then a little cat nap for about 1 hour around 5pm. Eat at 6pm. Play some more. Last feed around 8:30pm and asleep by 9 or 9:30pm. Then you sleep through the night! And we start all over at 7:30am. I am one blessed momma by you and your great sleeping ;).
Jocelyn Krause came into the world on March 31st! Yahoo- you've got a friend for life!
We love being your parents, watching you grow, making you giggle, and seeing you learn. You are so fun.
we love you more and more everyday!
love, Momma & Daddy

{what a cute boy!}